#41

Goethestein posted:
Whatever you did must have been pretty awful but also embarrassing enough to not want to talk about it on an internet forum. Suicide attempt is out, as is gayness and most crimes. If it was for no reason the unjustness of itthe would have been stated upfront. Personally I'm betting on incest



shut up

#42
hi skylark
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e: nm

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#44
Ok, so apparently there might be some at least quasi-predatory shit going on with targeting "Survivors" but I don't know yet.
#45

dm posted:
Ok, so apparently there might be some at least quasi-predatory shit going on with targeting "Survivors" but I don't know yet.



Are you talking about a smear campaign against those that have gone through the programs?

#46
i'm really glad you're talking about this here, this needs to be exposed and people need to be educated (people like me, who know very little). i hope one day it'll be in the past, like those Chinese peasants who would talk about the injustices they suffered before the revolution at monthly meetings, a remnant of the old world you'd be vigilant of and strive against.

has this been greatly expanded since the 80s/90s?
#47
Paris Hilton attended the running springs school for some months prior to attending Provo Canyon School. When she turned 18 she left as an adult.

Joe Francis, manager of Girls Gone Wild attended CEDU before attending the University of Southern California. His parents were heavily involved in Herbalife. Joe Francis also attended Rocky Mountain Academy in Idaho in 1990.

wtf
#48
if you enjoy fucked up stories about real lives being senselessly ruined by corporations with political connections then youll love the wddp-lf thread

like when I saw the thread title i thought it would be english boarding school stories, but its ten times worse than even that miserable enclave of upper class child abuse

ilu dm keep makin cool posts on here and the 'deep
#49
FREE EARL SWEATSHIRT
#50
the weird activism-for-activism's sake manic aura of LF probably means it's just not that good a place to talk about this kind of stuff, especially when it seems like working out exactly the nature of how these places work is much of what's needed.
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#52
from what i saw in the lf thread it was just one moron with an anarchist av who was trying to be in charge of the discussion despite knowing shit-all, lf gets Mad about that sort of thing to a fault usually so idk why their privilege-dar didnt go off this time
#53

tpaine posted:

cleanhands posted:
if you enjoy fucked up stories about real lives being senselessly ruined by corporations with political connections then youll love the wddp-lf thread

like when I saw the thread title i thought it would be english boarding school stories, but its ten times worse than even that miserable enclave of upper class child abuse

ilu dm keep makin cool posts on here and the 'deep

i keep trying to register at the 'dp under names like Gummi Wyrm and Beach Baal and Fruit Paunch but my accounts are always rejected with the message "horny in pantys - m4m" ??? really weird but i'll keep trying.

you need to be vouched for now (im not doing it lol)

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#55

cleanhands posted:
from what i saw in the lf thread it was just one moron with an anarchist av who was trying to be in charge of the discussion despite knowing shit-all, lf gets Mad about that sort of thing to a fault usually so idk why their privilege-dar didnt go off this time



actually under the lf understanding of Privilege no one who hasn't been in one of these places has the Oppression Credentials to lambast zero

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#58
i can't remember where I saw that CEDU doc but it's insane and everyone should watch it. a guy i knew from a wealthy family who had serious drug problems got shipped off to one of these because his folks couldnt deal with him. i never heard from him again, and it was only recently when i saw that doc that i figured out what happened to him

also if anyone fucks up this thread i will be extremely annoyed
#59
Ok, so a little bit more about me so I can be a Real Person and you can help understand some of your friends a little better. I am indeed a white guy so I'm not going to make any false claims to universality here, but I did indeed see some shit. Hopefully you'll realize that asking me to give a precise socioeconomic breakdown is a little bit silly, but there are lots of other questions I can try to answer.

One of the weird things about these places is that the relations in which you're placed with everyone are a little more obviously bullshit. I never exactly "left" either (sorry the outside isn't all that different by the time you're ready to leave), so I've had to understand them a bit better. The place is segregated by gender, but you can have just enough closely monitored and supervised contact to find out about more fucked up shit.

On one such occasion, I met a really friendly girl who had the same last name as my middle name and we thought that was kind of a neat coincidence. She was from Inglewood (yes she was black) and my middle name is from an adopted parent anyways, but that's obviously not the point. It would be nice if exposing these places wasn't so white.

As far as doing it does go, I think the sentiment in this was really nice from one of the links in the OP irrespective of the spelling:

Our main job is to maintain our wiki database. All to often a young person enters the adulthood with a story which most people would not believe to have taken place in this millennium. However, our mission is to make the world aware that such suffering do exist. Institutionalized child abuse is sadly a fact. Our society needs to take action before the future generations are destroyed in such re-education programs.

Our mission is also to unite survivors, so they can meat other survivors. No one should cope with the psychological ordeal from the programs on their own.



I don't like the term "survivor" because even getting rid of these places won't fix the incredible range of underlying social conditions that give rise to them, but it pops up a lot and they mean really well, so I'm not going to complain too much. It would be a huge mistake to think that people just go and do that stuff on their own. You might even know people that have managed better than some of the others personally and they're afraid to tell you.

There is nobody waiting to explain what happened when you leave and you are quite rightly convinced that nobody will believe you or care about it. You are all pretty exceptional in that respect, so thanks.

One of the other things I'm supposed to be embarrassed about is that my high school diploma is actually a piece of paper from this place backed by a GED. Some things I've been a little guarded about might make a little bit more sense now.

Anyways here is more of the horrifying stuff that needs to be said, but hopefully presented in a way that doesn't make it sort of pornographic. The tone is because it was originally posted on some other place that nobody here probably reads:

Spoiler!


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#60
So yeah we can certainly say that mistakes were probably made during the cultural revolution.
#61
Maybe we can mobilize into the most ironic revolutionary class ever or something, idk. Sorry, I really need to make at least some jokes about this.
#62

dm posted:
Maybe we can mobilize into the most ironic revolutionary class ever or something, idk. Sorry, I really need to make at least some jokes about this.



do you float in water

#63

Hurricane_Faggot posted:

dm posted:
Ok, so apparently there might be some at least quasi-predatory shit going on with targeting "Survivors" but I don't know yet.

Are you talking about a smear campaign against those that have gone through the programs?



Yeah, maybe more, idk. There's a lot of stuff to deal with.

jools posted:

cleanhands posted:
from what i saw in the lf thread it was just one moron with an anarchist av who was trying to be in charge of the discussion despite knowing shit-all, lf gets Mad about that sort of thing to a fault usually so idk why their privilege-dar didnt go off this time

actually under the lf understanding of Privilege no one who hasn't been in one of these places has the Oppression Credentials to lambast zero



Yeah don't do this or I will start comparing it to sin eating as I go through more of the stuff. I do have discretion in how I explain it even if the outcome will be the same. I'll re-post what I said in another context:

It's not something I use as a greeting. It's not something I put on job applications. I don't joke about it to make friends. I don't whisper it into the ear of a lover to show how much I care.



My jokes about are a coping thing. No it's not creepy if it makes you want to talk to me about something because you think I'd understand. I would be happy to as long as your decision is carefully considered and it's not literally the only reason you want to talk to me (being afraid that nobody will believe you is an acceptable reason).

discipline posted:
I'm watching a doc on cedu and the "raps" part really reminds me of some other online interactions I've been subject to...



Good.

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#64

Crow posted:
Paris Hilton attended the running springs school for some months prior to attending Provo Canyon School. When she turned 18 she left as an adult.

Joe Francis, manager of Girls Gone Wild attended CEDU before attending the University of Southern California. His parents were heavily involved in Herbalife. Joe Francis also attended Rocky Mountain Academy in Idaho in 1990.

wtf



I don't know, that's why I said that thing in the OP. I have no idea if it's like a disinfo thing or not and it also makes delimiting them kind of problematic. It is why Theory is needed. The criteria I use are just what I saw and there are all kinds of places with some really striking similarities to that. The images from the application I posted are from the place I went to, so that's that.

When you're there, everyone needs to be Put in Place for the wide variety of reasons provided in the application.

e:

babyfinland posted:

dm posted:
Maybe we can mobilize into the most ironic revolutionary class ever or something, idk. Sorry, I really need to make at least some jokes about this.

do you float in water



idgi

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#65
I'm very sorry for what you went through. I've read about these places in the past and it never fails to horrify me what angry parents and religious freaks (who never really grew up themselves) are capable of.

I hope that you can channel your anger into preventing the same thing from happening to other kids. If it means anything, I've dedicated my life to helping teens through self-directed learning. It takes a certain personality and skin to work with emotional teens and those who have not grown up themselves should stay the fuck out of their lives.
#66

NounsareVerbs posted:
I'm very sorry for what you went through. I've read about these places in the past and it never fails to horrify me what angry parents and religious freaks (who never really grew up themselves) are capable of.

I hope that you can channel your anger into preventing the same thing from happening to other kids. If it means anything, I've dedicated my life to helping teens through self-directed learning. It takes a certain personality and skin to work with emotional teens and those who have not grown up themselves should stay the fuck out of their lives.



It's not just parents though, as you can see from the form I posted on the first page. Think about all of the roles and institutions you would expect to prevent something like this. Every last one of them fails you and there's no getting them back in the same way if at all. That's why what you're doing does mean something.

#67
The death theme in that last round of text in spoilers is something to be developed. Graeber's book on debt has some stuff about being torn from one social context and placed in another that I think is based on a book by Orlando Patterson that he cites in the bibliography. He employs Hegel's master-slave dialectic and Marx to do a lot of really cool stuff. It should again not be understood as a direct comparison.

Although using different symbolic tools, much the same sense of apartness, of not belonging, emerged in other cultures to differentiate the genuine slave from other forms of involuntary servants over whom almost total power was exercised. Yet the natal alienation of the slave was not necessarily expressed in religious, racial, or even ethnic terms. Among primitives, as we shall see, alienation from one's natal ties was all that was necessary. Sometimes law alone, superimposed on the slave's sense of not belonging, was sufficient. Indeed, it was Moses Finley, drawing on the Greco-Roman experience, who was among the first to emphasize what he called the "outsider" status of the slave as a critical attribute of his condition? He did not make the mistake that Henri Levi-Bruhl had earlier made, of generalizing from the Roman experience to the conclusion that the social alienation of the slave was necessarily an ethnic one. Insofar as Roman slaves were foreigners, Finley argued, they were outsiders twice over, clearly allowing for the reduction of locally recruited slaves to the status of outsiders.

I prefer the term "natal alienation," because it goes directly to the heart of what is critical in the slave's forced alienation, the loss of ties of birth in both ascending and descending generations. It also has the important nuance of a loss of native status, of deracination. It was this alienation of the slave from all formal, legally enforceable ties of "blood," and from any attachment to groups or localities other than those chosen for him by the master, that gave the relation of slavery its peculiar value to the master. The slave was the ultimate human tool, as imprintable and as disposable as the master wished. And this is true, at least in theory, of all slaves, no matter how elevated. Paul Rycaut's classic description of the lanissaries as men whom their master, the sultan, "can raise without Envy and destroy without Danger, holds true for all slaves in all times.

The incapacity to make any claims of birth or to pass on such claims is considered a natural injustice among all peoples, so that those who were obliged to suffer it had to be regarded as somehow socially dead. Callicles in Plato's Gorgias goes to the heart of the matter when he says:

By the rule of nature, to suffer injustice is the greater disgrace because the greater evil; but conventionally to do evil is the more disgraceful. For the suffering of injustice is not the part of a man, but of a slave, who indeed had better die than live; since when he is wronged and trampled upon, he is unable to help himself, or any other about whom he cares.



....

Human beings have always found naked force or coercion a rather messy, if not downright ugly, business, however necessary. As Niccolo Machiavelli observed, it is the "beastly" part of power. The problem has always been to find some way to clothe its beastliness, some idiom through which it can be made immediately palatable to those who exercise it. By the idiom of power I mean the principal way in which power is immediately interpreted in socially and cognitively acceptable terms. It is the way in which power is most meaningfully presented to, and understood by, those who wield it and by the members of their community. It is not necessarily a form of mystification, although one form of it certainly is. In most preindustrial societies individuals are usually fully aware of what it stands for. Nor is the idiom a form of legitimation, although it paves the way for it.

The idiom of power has two aspects--one purely social, the other conceptual. To begin with the social aspect, in the course of human history there have been two polar extremes in the idiomatic handling of the coercive aspect of power. One has been the tendency to acknowledge human force openly, then to humanize it by the use of various social strategies such as fictive kinship, clientship, and asymmetric gift exchanges. The other extreme has been the method of concealment, in which coercion is almost completely hidden or thoroughly denied. Indeed, it is even presented as the direct opposite of what it is, being interpreted as a kind of freedom.

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#69
Oh shit, reading those sections in Debt must have been uh..... evocative after going through something like this. JEsus christ
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#71
And yes, I'm still exactly who you thought I was before, implicit assumptions included. It's really important to not identify being at one of these places with a reason, even if it was a "bad" reason. It is always at best a rationale that manages to fit a pretty wide range of people provided that they are the right age.
#72

Meursault posted:
Oh shit, reading those sections in Debt must have been uh..... evocative after going through something like this. JEsus christ



Nope, everything I come across is probably more like "intriguing". After the initial (severe) shock wears off everything becomes amazingly normal and I have no idea what it looks like to other people on the outside. That part of the book will actually give you a lot of insight.

#73
Speaking of the cultural revolution, Patterson's "idiom of power" has its counterpart in Robert Jay Lifton's "thought terminating cliche". Lifton debriefed American POW's after the Korean War (the origin of the term brainwashing) so the title seems really bad but he's not a reactionary or anything: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thought_Reform_%28book%29

In the preface to the 1989 edition he wrote that he didn't even see it as a record of Maoist China anymore and had turned his attention to cults.

#74
Climbs On Roof: 2 (very true or often true).
#75
Getting this stuff out has made me feel a lot better as well. I'm doing very alright for the first time in a long time. It's like I'm safe now or something and also I'm going to make a lot of people confront it irl that have been able to treat me like it was a personal problem or something.

But yeah, like I said, this thread isn't meant to be about me. This is all very much Out There. I will be the Virgil to your Dante.
#76

dm posted:
he knows just enough to be seriously disturbing by PMing me on alt accounts unless that is actually someone willing to say something.



i was apparently wrong about this and feel like an asshole. some people are really cool after all

#77
Hey bro, I see that you've changed the OP a bit from your original and based on what you took out, it seems like maybe the questions I asked earlier itt aren't really appropriate itt anymore. Let me know if you'd like me to edit anything.
#78
I took that post out to avoid inter-forum drama. How can I alter it again to accurately reflect your questions? You asked like all of the standard questions that need to be gotten out of the way so that was really good.
#79
Ok cool. I thought you originally had something in there that directed people to ask you questions about your personal experience, but maybe I'm misremembering. Probably doesn't matter, just wanted to make sure that was still ok.
#80
Yeah, it's totally ok to ask me about my personal experience here. I kind of have to play two roles that I'm still figuring out (suggestions are welcome). Like most stuff about what life was like there and what they did is open, though some of it might take a bit.

It's important to keep in mind that it happened to me along with other people. Think of Sartre's No Exit or something. You're sort of assigned a stigma and you act it out with others while all sorts of other crazy shit is going on at the facility level.

We were split up into a number of units above all by gender and then each side had corresponding units for kids under 15 and kids with stuff like schizophrenia (they can solve literally problem with any kid so long as it's entirely the kid's fault). You are kept with your unit at all times and move from building to building in a coordinated fashion as necessary. We were all assigned numbers that were put on our clothes so they didn't even need staff to remember both our names and our faces to chase us down if we tried to run or otherwise "process" us for various reasons, some weirder than others.

Absolutely everything you do is monitored. All of the worst things you would want someone to watch you doing are monitored directly in the special isolation unit. Not wanting to be monitored will just get you more strictly monitored. You get sent to the isolation unit if you show the slightest sign of ceasing to comply. In the isolation unit, they have you write sort of ritualistic confessions about whatever you did, why it was wrong, etc. You can't talk to anyone at all while you're there.

Within the isolation unit there are chambers where you just get locked up like in a little box. Don't say something or you are not complying and you get locked in a fucking box. That's at least honest.

So we have not getting locked in a box moving up to having every move you make strictly controlled and monitored up to "normal" life where you have all of your "privileges" like not getting locked in a fucking box.